In this episode I am talking about the trigger I experienced when I was at my daughters dance competition. It reminded me when I was nine and we used to be entered into beauty contests. I would always come last and could not understand why I was never chosen. As a child I thought people didn’t like me and I had to become someone else in order to be loved. It was at this time I think I started believing that in order to be loved I had to become a different version of me and to live a “lie” so I could be accepted.