In this episode, I share how I thought that I was saved, but in reality I was deluded; still a slave to sin.  At the age of 9, I confessed Jesus as Lord with my mouth, I believed in my heart that God raised him from the dead, I was water baptized.  I had a zeal to serve. I prayed regularly. I met my wife in the church. We raised our daughter in the church. I held positions of leadership in what I now call 'churchianity;' outwardly I had all the signs and language of being 'Christian.' But inwardly, I was still a slave to food as a glutton, lust, and later to alcohol.  Everyone in my home groups and other leaders I knew had their sins they struggled with and I was taught that was normal, so that's what I thought and taught. But inwardly, I knew there was something wrong and my life wasn't getting better, it was collapsing. I had not received the Holy Spirit and been indwelled and equipped to be free of sin.  This is my story.