🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 22

Title: Cold Toes, Old Temptations, and a Sloppy Kind of Sanctification

Description:

It’s 6:15 AM on June 2nd. I’m barefoot in my dad’s thong sandals, walking through wet, freezing grass behind my parents’ house—half awake, totally unfiltered, and fully in need of God.

This episode started as nothing. I didn’t plan it. I hit record. And then the Holy Spirit did what He does—He pulled a confession out of me I didn’t expect.

In this one, I share:

• Why I took an edible this week after 10 months sober in Africa
• What that decision did to my marriage, my conscience, and my calling
• The brutal sermon from Psalm 38 that hit like a ton of bricks
• My battle with CRUMB not being “ready” yet
• Why I walk into cold air and cold grass to wake my spirit up
• The difference between hiding sin and being free
• And a raw prayer at the end asking God to burn every fig leaf in my life

I didn’t want to share this. I really didn’t. But if I’m gonna ask men to live in the light, I’ve got to keep dragging my own junk into it too.

If this thing ever works—if CRUMB ever becomes what I believe it’s called to be—I need the receipts to show it was never me.

Just a son in sandals, freezing, confessing, and trying to walk it out.

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Trudging through wet grass in flip-flops, hitting record with no plan

01:30 – Begging God for strength to finally launch CRUMB

03:00 – Cold walking as a wake-up ritual

04:30 – Recap of Sunday’s sermon on Psalm 38 and the crushing weight of conviction

06:45 – Why we need a wrathful God as much as a loving one

07:50 – “Phyto-photo-dermatitis” and fig leaves on your no-no parts

09:10 – The power of confession to unlock freedom

10:30 – My confession: I took an edible this week

12:00 – Old habits, marital fallout, and the guilt that followed

13:45 – Why I don’t want edibles anymore—and what they used to give me

15:00 – The truth: I’m not perfect. I’m still battling.

16:20 – “If this ever works, it’ll be because God built it from my weakness”

17:40 – A prayer from the sidewalk, for the broken, the addicted, the ashamed, and the sons on the edge of light

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

• Psalm 38 – “My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear…”
• 1 John 1:5–9 – “If we walk in the light… the blood of Jesus purifies us from all sin.”
• Genesis 3:7 – The fig leaves of shame and hiding
• Romans 5:8 – “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
• Hebrews 4:16 – “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

You don’t need to be perfect to lead.

But you do need to be honest.

Confession isn’t weakness—it’s how you take back territory the enemy once owned.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #22 — sandals soaked, sin exposed, spirit surrendered. May every fig leaf be burned. May every man walk free.