A pondering check in about show notes and how I create these for this here podcast! Do people even read them!?

— and are they something I want to keep creating or can I be more concise with them!?

My time management and the stories and voices I have in my head around and about what I ACHIEVE in a day!

- value and validating myself as a human seperate to what I achieve…

So often I need a hug.

And that hasn’t always been a safe thing. A thing I’ll ask for because I haven’t felt safe or it’s felt uncomfortable!

If I can stay through the initial ‘this is not safe’ — which I’m realising might have been more a ‘this is UNCOMFORTABLE’ and outside of my ‘normal’ experience.

To stay thro this discomfort I can notice my body let go in ways that I didn’t even know I was holding on!

Very often my FIRST reaction is one of survival…WHEN I STAY…it’s okay to experience panic and not knowing if it’s safe…I actually discover that…on the other side of that is RELEASE!

Space.

It takes me a long time to realise my own desires and to own them…

My desires are my way hole. I can trust my desire. I can trust who I want to be with, or don’t want to be with. It’s about the energy.

And energy.

And me moving back into my body!

I like having a clearly defined container that then gives me space to really let go and trust and flow! Trust that what is given is fully given!

Wanting to know how long I have to share, or if someone can hold space! A clearly communicated — what is being offered…I can listen for 10minutes…makes it so safe for me to drop in and be sure that what I’m sharing — will be held.

The longer I am in relationship with people, the more I find myself wondering how to sustain showing up.

Do I need a problem to be known!?

Yep…my family of origin taught me this…

So staying is an edge…simply staying and not running away is an edge.

People wanting to know me as I am, no matter how I show up…is terrifying and a new experience, an edge…

This, letting people know me, is the edge I want to lean into and find safety in!

Come, hear all about it in today’s episode!

Me ruined in this Episode-

Edge Retreat

run by Kevin Chan of The Void Space

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