Kate Fagan is a columnist and feature writer for ESPN. Her latest book is What Made Maddy Run: The Secret Struggles and Tragic Death of an All-American Teen.

“When I was professionally closeted, I was kind of bitter. I didn’t have a ton of empathy. And I don’t think I always asked the right question, because I wouldn’t ask people questions that I wouldn’t want to be asked…I had walls up. I wouldn’t even allow myself to be vulnerable in my writing. Because the whole point of my existence at that time was to circumvent any moment that could create vulnerability in a way that would frighten me. And I think you could that see in my writing.”

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[00:00] Stoner

[00:45] Fagan’s Archive at ESPN

[00:45] Around the Horn

[01:00] What Made Maddy Run: The Secret Struggles and Tragic Death of an All-American Teen (Little, Brown and Company • 2017)

[01:15] "Split Image" (ESPN • May 2015)

[06:30] The Reappearing Act: Coming Out as Gay on a College Basketball Team Led by Born-Again Christians (Skyhorse Publishing • 2014)

[07:45] "Storybook Ending Trailing Tennessee Late, Unbeaten Connecticut Got Into Gear In Time To Conclude a Charmed Season" (Austin Murphy • Sports Illustrated • Apr 1995)

[16:00] Fagan’s Archive at Ellensburg Daily Record

[16:30] Fagan’s Archive at The Post Star

[16:45] Fagan’s Archive at The Philadelphia Inquirer

[22:00] Deep Sixer Blog

[37:45] Madison Holleran’s Instagram

[44:15] Outside the Lines

[44:15] First Take

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