I've always been totally enthralled by activists of every stripe. Enduring the vitriol that comes with raising your head up and saying that the status quo isn't good enough. I've always wished I had the strength to be an activist, to really stand for something and put myself out there that way. I don't know if I could handle the white hot hate some people get when they stand up for themselves and others, even if I try to do my own lukewarm version of activism.

Lately, my brain has been consumed with the question of whether I do enough. The answer is no. I will never do enough because it's like trying to hold water in your hands. Too many things happening, not enough time, not enough experience. But I will keep striving and trying to be an activist in the way that would make me truly proud even if I'll never achieve it.

The problem started as a quiet whisper originally: what if. What if people are right and I don't care about others who might suffer, who might not get looked after, if we get the tories out.

Will I stop fighting? Is just getting them out enough, or is this about the first step towards a wholesale change in society that makes everyone's lives better?

This isn't a pet project for me. it's an obsession- I'm a keen study and am trying to learn how to do my best by everyone I can. But I'm learning and new.

The question for everyone else, the thing everyone needs to ask themselves is... is that what you're fighting for? Do you want systemic change, improvement, a better life for everyone?

I want government who looks after us all.