Episode 3 is the third essay in my coming out trilogy. This essay uses the philosophical concept of sehnsucht (a longing for we-know-not-what) as a vehicle for exploring the moment that I first really integrated the truth of my own blessed queerness with the facticity of my life. It marks the third of the significant “coming out” moments for me, where Episode 1 represents my coming out to the world as a whole, Episode 2 represents my realization of my own transness, Episode 3 is about the moment my knowledge of my queerness shifted from my head to my heart—when I went from knowing that I am queer to knowing that I have always already been beautifully and blessedly queer.

After this episodes will shift to dropping twice a week or so until I run out of back catalogue. Episode 4 will jump forward in the timeline of my writing to the present as an audio edition of my most recent essay Queerness is a Blessing.

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