What happens when the love of your life dies in your arms? When the world you built together vanishes in an instant?

In this raw and unfiltered episode, Danny Painter takes us deep into the first few hours and days after losing her husband—where shock, grief, and unbearable guilt became a crushing weight. She speaks candidly about the vodka she drowned in, the belief that it was all her fault, and how the darkness of grief nearly consumed her.

With brutal honesty, Danny explores themes of alcohol abuse, suicidal ideation, and the suffocating feeling that life ends with the person you lose. She opens up about the surreal and painful experience of grieving in the public eye—where even her husband's funeral became a spectacle for others to dissect.

This episode isn’t just about loss—it’s about survival. About clawing your way back when you don’t believe you deserve to. About facing the unbearable and learning to breathe again. If you’ve ever felt like grief was too much to carry, this one is for you.

💡 If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. Please reach out for support.

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🎵 Title music by the incredible GRAAFF.