Episode 3- You are not alone!

Do you have an overwhelming sense of feeling alone? Did you wake up feeling unprepared, inadequate, isolated, sad, maybe a little bit anxious or depressed? Does the thought of having to face another day send a shockwave through your body and leave you feeling paralyzed? If it doesn't right now, chances are you can remember a time when you felt alone.

I know I sure can. Personally, I have countless times remembered feeling alone and inadequate and not enough. Growing up as a kid, in contrast though, I always felt very confident and secure. I always had a buddy with me. You see, I had a womb mate. Yep, that's right. I have a twin sister and she was always with me. But even when you have a friend,

For some reason, you can still feel alone when you enter a middle school or a high school, or even walking into a social setting, maybe a dinner party or a holiday gathering, or even walking into church. I can remember being teased for not having a small body. I was called thunder thighs and told I had a big nose. I can remember feeling unpopular and uncool.

Those little seeds that were planted in middle school and high school definitely stuck with me until my adult years. And those feelings left me feeling alone. I'm not gonna lie. It's amazing what the words people say can do inside your brain when you twist them and turn them into crazy thoughts. But it's been hard to shake off those lies from the enemy, because that's all they are.

The way kids talk to each other, it's a big deal. The way adults talk to each other, the things we say, it's a big deal. But kids, especially for some reason, don't understand the weight of their words. Other times I felt alone after a serious loss or a heartache. I'm gonna give you several different examples, not for sympathy, I don't need that. But I do want to hopefully...

Trigger someone who's listening to realize if you're going through something, you're not alone. Other people have been through what you have been through. Each situation is a little bit different, but they're all very similar. I can remember in high school having blowout friends, uh, blowout fights with friends. Um, that just totally devastated me. Um, a best friend, we even had like some racial misunderstanding, which was crazy. Um, just.

Fast forward after graduation. I got into a relationship with a man that I thought was godly driven hard -working honest leader only to find out after a lot of heartache that I was wrong. I just wanted someone to love me and I wanted to not be alone. So I wanted to feel needed and I wanted to feel wanted. So instead of being alone, I decided let's get married.

She was absolutely beautiful and I was totally crushed. I felt so alone through all that grief. It was hard for family and friends to even know what to say to comfort me because nothing really worked. The grief was so much to bear that I would cry myself to sleep. And I had this deep sense though through it all knowing God was with me and there was a reason I would see her again one day and it brought me peace.

Joshua 1:9 Be strong and of good courage. Do not be afraid nor be dismayed for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. I don't care where you're at right now. God is with you.

Romans 8: 31, If God is for you, who can be against you? I love that scripture. That, that is a battle cry for somebody.

Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You do not be afraid and do not be discouraged. I love that God is going before you. I love that He's been going before me and just there with me making things smooth.

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