Have you ever been in a relationship with a toxic narcissist?

It's not fun. And honestly - that's putting it mildly. Like, really mildly.

The mind-f*cking that toxic narcissists engage in as part of their natural state of "being" is pretty insane.

I was in a relationship with a toxic narcissist over a decade ago but didn't realize that's what it even was until years later. But I also realized that this relationship, although so incredibly painful to exist in, felt similar to a relationship with someone in my family, and so even though I hated it - it was familiar, and I stayed.

Until one day, I reached my breaking point and left - which is when everything got even worse.

Ultimately, I am thankful for this experience. I grew stronger because of it, and it helped me realize how other relationships in my life 1. Allowed me to accept this hell of a relationship, and 2. Were eerily similar, and needed to change.

This is my story. And I hope it helps you. Or someone.

If it helps you, or you think it would help someone else, please share it.

If you are in an emotionally abusive relationship, or any kind of abusive relationship, I encourage you to seek help. If traditional therapy isn't an option, there are other resources available that I've listed below.

I've also listed links to articles I used in my research for this episode.

Co-Dependents Anonymous - https://recovery.org/support-groups/codependents-anonymous/

Better Help - https://www.betterhelp.com/

Signs of a Narcissist - https://mindbodygreen.com/articles/14-signs-of-narcissism

7 Types of Narcissists - https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/personality/7-types-of-narcissists-and-what-to-look-for/

Grey Rock - https://healthline.com/health/grey-rock