A couple of days ago, I found myself spiraling. I’d had an appointment at the hospital that brought up so many old triggers and unprocessed emotions. I really had to take a moment and tease out all that was happening inside of me. There was intense grief as the ultrasound scan had made me relive the moment we found out that our first baby had died. There was also a lot of fear - fear for this pregnancy and whether the babies were doing ok. Fear that they might end up in the NICU and/or that I would have to stay in the hospital for weeks on end.

It took me a couple of days to work through all of that and I decided to record my journey along the way for you to hear how I got myself out of that spiral again. I share some of my techniques for dealing with grief, fear, the self-care practices that I used to ground myself and feel supported, and how I eventually managed to get back to a space of love, connection, surrender and acceptance. I’m happy to share that we’ve since had another scan and the babies are doing perfectly fine. But more importantly, I know feel confident again that me and my husband will be able to deal with any challenges that may come our way.