🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 34b

Title: I Don’t Know How to Relax Anymore

Description:

It’s still June 12th, and I’m in the car heading to lunch with my dad, his cousins, and my kids. I said I’d take the day off, but now I’m restless. When I don’t have a task or project, my mind spirals into guilt, anxiety, and productivity panic. I’m wrestling with the fact that God may be giving me a green pasture moment—and I don’t know how to lay down in it. This is part two of the battle: trying to relax.

I talk about:

• Feeling anxious when I’m not being productive
• Struggling to enjoy rest even when I’ve planned it
• Undoing hustle culture and “raging through the machine”
• Confessing I don’t know how to relax anymore
• Recognizing how laziness led to bankruptcy in the past
• Asking God to either keep or remove the spirit of hustle

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Restless on a day off, driving to cousin lunch

01:45 – “What am I not getting done?” mindset kicks in

03:20 – Years of hustle culture programming surfacing

04:55 – “I don’t know how to relax anymore”

06:35 – Comparing Navy SEAL mindset vs green pastures

08:10 – “God, walk-off home run this spirit if you want to”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

When God finally gives you green pastures, it can be hard to believe you’re allowed to rest in them.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #34b — Let’s get all of this in Jesus’ name. Amen.