🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 38

Title: It's not easy to quit

Description:

I'm parked outside a UDF on Beechmont staring at a cigarette poster that says, "It's not easy to quit." It's a moment of real-time temptation, the kind that used to knock me out. I'm alone in the car, running errands in Cincinnati, and the urge to buy a $5 edible hits hard. I talk about what it's like to still want the old high, to pray sincerely for it to go away—and not feel it lift. But I also share how confession, speaking it aloud, and doing this war journal helps me keep going.

I talk about:

• Seeing the "It's not easy to quit" sign right as I felt tempted
• Why Africa was easier: no access, no option
• The tattoo I got for 2 Corinthians 12:7–11
• How addiction turns into forced prayer
• What happened last time I hid it from my wife
• Why bringing it to light keeps me clean
• Fighting with truth, Spirit, and spiritual weapons

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Sitting at UDF in front of the “It’s not easy to quit” poster

03:15 – Remembering the ease of sobriety in Africa: no access

05:20 – Why I got a tattoo of 2 Corinthians 12:7–11

08:40 – How God uses my thorn to draw me closer

11:10 – The downward spiral when I hide it from my wife

14:55 – Real-time confession helps me resist the edible

17:30 – “If I want to be seen more than be real, I’ll cave”

20:45 – Final prayer: for the addicts, strugglers, and the weary

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

2 Corinthians 12:7–11 – "Thorn in the flesh... my grace is sufficient"

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Temptation doesn't always disappear through prayer—but bringing it to light gives it less power.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #38 — I'm trying to model walking out my faith, not by sight.