Today is the day you can enter into the kingdom. Not by your own works, not by your own strength but by what Jesus Christ has done. Stop running from God & run to Him. You are loved! The plans that God has for your life are amazing. He wants to use you! 

joshua 24:15 

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.