This week I tried out an infrared sauna and a writing exercise inspired by the doctor Cynthia Li, and the writer Cheryl Strayed. I struggled with sinking morale, and realized I’m starting to feel betrayed by magical (right hemisphere) healing modalities, in much the same way that I felt betrayed by rational (left hemisphere) modern medical ones a decade ago. I draw on wisdom from psychiatrist Iain McGilchrist and the indigenous naturopathic doctor Nicole Redevers to help me reflect on these betrayals and possibly reconcile the deep conflict within (and without).