Today’s episode explores the journey of self-discovery and embodiment as an Autistic trans woman. The author of the source article, Dr. Jaime Hoerricks, describes her creative process, which is Gestalt-based—beginning with atmosphere and feeling (”vision first”) before language or conventional design (”language after”). Dr. Hoerricks details the process of using an AI rendering tool, Sora, as a gentle scaffolding to accurately visualise a graduation dress that aligns with her emerging femme identity and her tall, strong body, which is unrepresented in mainstream fashion. This rendering process is presented as an act of autonomy and precision, a method for building a self without asking permission, ultimately leading to a sense of quiet arrival and congruence as she prepares to wear the dress for a significant event. She emphasises that the dress represents access and embodiment, not performance or costume, and reflects a life finally lived with intention and clarity.

Here’s the link to the source article: https://open.substack.com/pub/autside/p/vision-first-language-after-rendering where you can see the dress.

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