From the outside looking in, Andy McLaren was living the dream. A professional footballer, playing the game he loved as a day job. In reality, the young lad was haunted. The victim of child abuse & the passing of his father at just 16 saw Andy abuse drink & drugs as a coping mechanism for the demons in his head. Despite it all he was flourishing at Dundee Utd & was a Scottish Cup winner at just 20 years old. However the reality of his trauma & suffering would come to the forefront & be played out publicly when he failed a random drugs test at Reading FC in the year 2000. Listen as Andy gives an honest account of his career & struggles & how he has manged to turn his life around.