In this one, I tried some audio editing tricks. Not sure how I feel about them. It's still a learning process. I talk about the invisible parts of grief, the small things that strike out of nowhere and send me down a spiral of sadness. I also update on Midnight Sun, and what I'm reading now. I talk about creativity as a life raft again and some creative projects I'm trying to build up the nerve to do. I also talk about wishing for death, guilt about sharing my burden, feeling like a bother, and the guilt of not appreciating the things and people around me now. I talk about how much everything takes a toll to deal with, alone and with others. So just assume there's a trigger warning here, and also, I swear a lot.