The idea of Enlightenment is given by others or by books. Can you frame the fundamental issue? You think, things should happen as you want, no problems should tinker your mind. But you face resistance (pain and uncertainty), that is, discomforting, irritating situations. That is why you feel incomplete. And go on removing, undoing, solving the resistance by addition to possessions, religious-spiritual explanations.

Can you take a different step?