In this eye-opening episode of the Clarity Podcast, John Tucker shares his powerful journey growing up in a mainstream polygamist church. Raised in a world where the role of women and young girls was rigidly controlled and boys were pushed to marry multiple wives, John reflects on the emotional and spiritual challenges of this lifestyle. He opens up about the lack of father figures in his childhood, the deep-rooted financial exploitation within the church, and the internal conflict he faced as he began questioning the system.

John’s story highlights both the hardships and rare moments of connection in his life, as well as his personal awakening that led him to leave the polygamist lifestyle. He discusses his struggles with faith, finding forgiveness for his family, and how his eventual spiritual transformation gave him the clarity and strength to build a new life. This is a must-watch for anyone curious about the hidden realities of polygamist communities, personal resilience, and the journey to self-liberation.

00:00 - Intro
03:14 - The Kingston group: childhood and family dynamic
05:45 - First experience with God
08:30 - Father and uncle’s role
12:00 - Farm & family
20:00 - Questioning polygamy as necessary & how polygamy affects people
32:35 - The lost boys
34:00 - Dances & dating
46:28 - John meets his wife
48:57 - Abuse & the law of “one above another”
53:26 - Outside world & keeping it secret
54:39 - John dates and marries his wife
1:03:30 - Abuse, chain of command, and financial empire, and more polygamy
1:26:30 - Anger and forgiveness
1:31:26 - Stepping away and introduction to the LDS church
1:43:12 - To be continued...

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