I Come First

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I wanna touch a man

But there’s too few that understand me

I want someone to take the lead but

Never to command me

It’s both simple

And complex

There’s so much that’s on my chest

I’d like to get off

As I let off steam

Not sinful

Just want sex

But I need passion to undress me

From a man who’s not perplexed

And I can’t wait to feel those ways about someone

Then see what’s next

I do want healing of all parts of me

That have been at unrest

Cause what I’m dealing with is stressful

Though I always do my best

I have been tested past my limits

And most chase my light to dim it

Now I’m in it just to win it

It’s myself on whom I’ll bet

I’m chasing dreams

No schemes or set ups

Not an actress that’s off set

And I need a team

Of those who’ve seen real darkness

But get up

Who ain’t obscene or mean to me

Who won’t just chase these hoes and checks

Until I find the ones that love me hard

I’ll dip with no regrets

If it ain’t right for me

Delightedly

I’ll keep my self respect

Cause I come first now motherfuckers

And I’ll say that shit direct

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Vandana Mall 🌙🌻✨