just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many.” — Matthew 20:28

Here is love — not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as the propitiation for our sins. That turns everything upside down. Your love for God is always a response, never the first move. While you were still weak, still a sinner, still an enemy — Christ died for you. Don't look inside for proof that you're loved; look at the cross.