Paradoxes are the rulers of reality, from the point of view of rationality.

Bla bla bla. Every word that comes out of my mouth makes no sense. Everything I write makes no sense. It’s so interesting how everything makes sense when nothing makes sense. And that which is true forever is false now. That which is false now is forever untrue. I just made that up.

What you’re seeing is 4 years down the road of giving over the authority of consciousness to the lower elements of the spyche (no, not psyche). Your thoughts just get dragged out all over the place. It’s basically just chaos, but there’s freedom in the chaos! That is the cost of freedom.

Chaos.

Now that I’ve seen order, chaos, and it seems every other possible state in between, I have come to the realization that there is no longer anything to search for, experientially. There is nothing to find. Only to become aware of.

Wow, Sam. Look at you, such a smartass.

He says to himself.

I literally can’t tell the difference between good and bad thoughts anymore, can I? That’s what happens when you give up good and evil. Everything is just a big soup of ideas that are all equally neutral. Neutrality shouldn’t be the pursuit of humanity. Neither should the separation of good and evil into that duality, because that is how that reality continues. It’s an obsession! Hey, let’s play a game in which every possible experience must be analyzed according to one question: is it good or is it bad?

“Perpetuate” is a word I hate since the “age of misinformation”. That, and “unprecedented”, which I hate since the age of Coooovid. Makes me want to puke. If you use the word “unprecedented” unironically you should ____ ________.

Whoa whoa. I didn’t actually mean that. I just… wanted you to wake up!

It’s so fun to discover what kind of thoughts have life within me. It’s such a mess in there.

This is the (jester archetype) part of me that rebels against being forced to write for a certain period of time because it feels that there is nothing needed to write. So it’s just playing around with me until I start to pay attention to what it’s trying to say (joker archetype).

(this part has been edited later; after the joker comes out to the table, the adults can finally start to talk. Otherwise, they can’t get along.)

Every shiver. Every pain. Every experience you could possibly have is infinitely filled with meaning if you just had the BALLS to see it. If you weren’t so afraid of experiencing its meaning. Hell is meaningless suffering. Trust me, I’ve been there. I think suffering is meaningless, and meaninglessness is suffering. They are synonymous. From the biological point of view, it means a confused organism. It doesn’t know what it’s experiencing, what any of it means, why it’s happening to it, and how to make it better. Does that sound familiar? It’s worse than blindness - it’s ignorance. What a wonderful skill humanity picked up along the way! Definitely, this skill we should ALL be spending our time trying to get AI to understand :)

We, as forms of life, have requested freedom, and what we asked for we received. Now humanity is so free to create reality, that we can even create barriers within ourselves that alienate one part of ourselves from another, neighboring part. Boring! We can then identify with one part and cast the light of consciousness on it, reject the other part, thus casting it down into THE SHADOW. Oooo spooky!

But what happens when the light and darkness meet? War? Why would you want it to be war? It’s just neutralization. Death. Life. Regeneration. It’s the soil from which new realities can grow. Rule of thumb: If you hate your experience, KILL IT.

But not in the way you think of killing. Just gently tell it to die because it doesn’t want to live. And if it refuses to die, ask why. If your experience is bad, and you don’t like it, why not change it? The ego gets in the way. THE EGO IS BAD THE EGO IS BAD THE EGO IS BAD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sound familiar?

Big Ego is the big daddy of problems.

Ego is the new devil in the spiritual circles. No matter how hard humans try, as long as we think, we can find the devil somewhere. It’s just that we’re getting closer and closer to understanding The Grand Absurdity as the devil is projected first, far away. Then, closer. Eventually we identify the ego with the devil, something that is the source of suffering. HUH???? Think about how stupid you were to fall for that one.

Why haven’t I been writing like this before? It’s because I come off as ABSOLUTELY bananas. Yes, I am banans. I love bananas. Just had one earlier. It was long and soft. Delicious.

Descent into madness. Descent into madness. He’s going crazy. These are the early stages of schizophrenia.

Great. If you believe it, then let it be so. Do you want to believe it? No? Then stop saying it and making it come true!!!

We become what we fixate on. We are what we eat.

Fixate on the darkness, and become the darkness. Fixate on the light, and become the light.

Fixate on your assumptions and beliefs about what “light” and “darkness” mean to you, and you will become those assumptions and beliefs. You see what I mean? It’s impossible to say anything without creating the reality associated with it.

To live a good life is to be a force of good in an endless swarm of evil. It means walking through a blizzard, or a sandstorm of energetic pull towards the co-creation of a reality that inflicts suffering onto itself and others. It means accepting the suffering of the world because we are the world. Everything you’ve ever heard is true. Assume there has never been evil of any sort, only confusion and ignorance. Assume it! See what happens. Allow yourself, for five minutes, to see the world in a new way. In this new world, there is no evil. And whenever it sneaks in, it does so because you allow it to. You want it to. And therefore, it’s all up to you. You carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, but only if you choose to! In the final analysis, consent is a two-sided coin. If you do not give consent to the ultimate good to embody through you, then… that’s your loss. But if you are not given consent at all, you aren’t the co-creator of reality. Just an NPC. That’s a choice also! With its positive and negative connotations, of course. But who’s NPC are you? Are we all SOMEBODY’S NPCs?

Accept your place in the universe! Accept your place as a monkey!
Do you see the double implications? On the one hand, you could read this as “Submit! Submit!” as seen on the big screen in 1984. On the other hand, you could see it as the Buddha standing right in front of you and screaming at you, so that you may hear “Stop trying to change things! Accept your experience!”

Which one do you prefer? And, do you think they’re separate? Do you think they’re independent of one another? Do you think you can have one without the other? What do you believe, and why?

Question your beliefs. Why? Because you have another belief somewhere deep down there that by questioning your beliefs somehow you can improve your experience. And why do you think this? Because you think that your experience needs improving. Why do you think this? Because you’re unhappy. You are unhappy! You are unhappy! But what’s the solution to unhappiness? Well, let’s see. The shallow answer is buying things or experiencing worldly desires. The DEEP answer is ENLIGHTENMENT, or something like that. Or maybe it’s to have our souls saved by Jesus. Either way, YOU ARE UNHAPPY. AND DON’T YOU FORGET IT. As long as you don’t have what you think you need, you will always be needy.

What separates the fulfilled from the needy? It’s that the needy NEED something they don’t have. The fulfilled already know they have it. What do you already know you have? Suffering? Pain? Hardship? Oh, you don’t like those? Why? It turns out that the rich people who are happy are those who put themselves in extremely cold water, in stressful situations, in physical pain, etc. So… That which the poor and needy are trying to escape, the ability to not have to experience that—turns out the rich seek it out. If they don’t, they’re just as miserable as you. And if they do, they’re still just as miserable as you.

The poor people HATE the rich. Right? And the rich HATE the poor. Right? Is that right? We all hate one another, right? That’s the duality we are all choosing because we LIKE it. It makes us feel GOOD about ourselves, to hate one another. Right? Is that true? Does it feel good to identify with one side and hate the other side? Question every thought, every assumption, everything. Because if you latch onto the right thought (or, the wrong one, I guess) you might discover something that will finally make things click and all of a sudden—enlightenment.

Wow! Permanent happiness. Permanent peace. Wow! Maybe it’ll be this thought! Maybe the next one! I’m going to continue pulling the thought lever over and over, maybe one of these days I’ll get a better thought than the one I currently have. Doesn’t this sound like a gambling addiction? It does, because the tendencies which we condemn in others are simply the same ones within us just expressed with variables which we’ve cast out of our identity, thus allowing us to condemn them and feel justified doing it. But what’s the consequence? It’s that the inner life within us, which represents and mirrors the world around us, suffers. It’s hated by YOU. You dumb fuck!

I like being called a dumb fuck. It makes me feel nice. Is there something wrong with me? Oh no, something is wrong with me. Let me waddle around in that little piss pool for a while and get all nice and warm.

I feel better now. Don’t you?

Greeting from Mr. Skeletor