There are times when the unthinkable happens to no fault of our own.  When it does happen must must acknowledge it so we can heal from it.  Have you started your emotional healing journey from your childhood  trauma? It's time to expose it because there is so much more to you than  what happened to you. You are not that trauma and there is a purpose  for your life. How long will you continue to go through the motions? How long will you stay in silent agreement with the enemy? We are to bring those things to the light and expose them so they no longer have a hold over us.