My stomach brews with a thousand storms,it . is . still . August 3:00 a.m it wakes me upit is not hunger, I don’t want a snack I want the child in me to set aside the back packI want her to know that working hard is one way, but playing hard is an oxymoronwork hard, play hard. swipe left.

Why is is so difficult to engender ease and play in our day to day?I wonder, I look back: who took that away?

light hands unencumbered heartsbruised knees & leveled fieldsto. play

TO PLAY

play hard, I cannot but laughalbeit begrudgingly baby your play should be serious, but play can not be hard let her be easy let her be silly let her push out of your seams like the laughs too big for lungs that crack open laughter, that leaves you clues of your native tongue.

Sometimes, when we learn an instrument. like say a violin, like every path to mastery we taste, we desire we come back. we learn.learning notes, lines, sounds the way your hands hold your instrument and the way it holds youthe way you tug on its stringsthe smiles and sighs, the vibrations it brings

but, I read once that spiders become one with their webthe focus in their movement the flow of creation, the repetition in ritual the high pitch of intention: the intention to live all of it comes together to extend their being way beyond their eight corners and into the orbThe orb of their webThe spider is not just themselves anymore, but also that web cognitive extension No, cognitive embodiment

That is the path out of cognitive taxation Out of cognitive load

ultraviolet sensors for ultraviolet markersthey say “the sensory systems of many animals are tuned in to the parts of the world that are relevant to their lives. Bees… use ultraviolet vision to find flowers that have also evolved ultraviolet markings.”but not every one will hear your song sometimes we forget that my violin cannot read your piano bars I promise though, to never force my tunes on you, to cherish the notes that move the machine of your heart.

Sometimes you have to sing your song to yourself so loud, so longit becomes all you hearsoon enough you stop recognizing other melodies, tunes, or genres

Let your world be your orbLet your interiors be a no shoes householdno boots on your white rugs you are responsible for the energy you bring but do you bring yourself? or the bag in which you have been held? have you ever slapped someone’s wrist as it climbed up your thighs?or did they always make their way, is it that you are shy? or that your limits were trampled on and your threshold is just that high?

blunted vision,did he touch me inappropriately or am I too much? too much. go find less. ( CC Elyes Myres) cognitive erosion, when you have to crawl so far back into yourself, you find yourself at the dot, teetering on top of a colon looking down. Down at that cliff.

Baby girl, let your big hands weave your rug let her extend beyond your mom’s arm length let your knees extend past your father’s foot-steps Live within your meansbut extend the meaning in your lifecreate options architect choices Stretch that web, let your rug grow in proportion to your heart let her hold you and yours the ones you have chosen and let no boot, stiletto, or slider take comfort on your grounds Stop repeating her apologiesstop defending your stainsmaking excuses for the marks and dents left by contorted bodies refusing to stretch

We forget that the fringe of a rug isn’t just a boundary but also the extension of its skeleton. Let your borders protect you from unraveling, let every knot in your fringe hinder your enemies and never you dreams.

how much of you has been worn out by overstepping?Where does yours end? where does theirs begin?

Playing tennis with what you think you owe and what you think you deserve; is really just squash.

sweat it out retire the racket an let that wall be you have other places to go, to see.

every wall you walk away from is a door you are walking through “No” sits well with ease, joy, and abundance.don’t let them fool you. You don’t have to express it, you just have to say it.

NO Don’t dance baby girl. Just say it: NO

Amen

Fodder

Spiders, orbs and cognitive extension

“If spider and web are working together as a larger cognitive system, the two should be able to affect each other. Changes in the spider’s cognitive state will alter the web, and changes in the web will likewise ripple into the spider’s cognitive state.” David Kaplan

The navel of the world: Omphalion

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