When as a family woman I did my wrong, wrongs, I did do some rights, or right actions. I didn't let toxic type people in, no drug users, or morally unaligned people. Then divorce occurred, on ny prompting , I think that was the beginning of the disconnect, family wise, the family of me and her.i they to help, help my family. This season of life is a great lesson to me. It may be I learn how I was all wrong, ok, I will learn. But, that, is still a reality. Wrong people stumble, make mistakes, go the wrong path. It's called human. Grace to others, grace to self. I need a new allowing, a permission. I elaborate to describe how the body, my body can have permissions to age, without me hating it, judging it, wishing it to be different.