Trigger warning to those who have felt suicidal in the past. I do talk about passive suicidal thoughts I have had. If you are actively feeling suicidal do not proceed with the episode and call the suicide hotline immediately 988.

[11] I feel that suicide is such a taboo topic and it shouldn't be. Due to the fact that more people than I thought have actually felt some form of suicidal thought and have not said a word to anybody. When i felt passively suicidal for the first time in my life. It was one of the worst feelings i have ever felt. Because the only way is through and you do not want to be here to see it through. You don't feel like you can endure it. In this episode, i discuss my own experiences with this awful feeling and how one should seek help when feeling this low.