Performing comedy while fighting off panic attack-Troll coming up w deranged fan fiction-going over accumulative stress and root cause-trying to die happy that I didn’t go regressive-bored with rebranded discourse-being in my head-being a social experiment-trying to reduce social media use-questioning why Im here-listening to old Stern segments-sabotage-karaoke version of edgy stuff-insecurities-not knowing who is listening to this podcast-paying it forward—avoiding self destruction mode-industry higher ups who hate me-curtailing irrational thoughts-15 year of tests cog behavior represents the majority—bored with wrestling discourse-religious undertones-WWE being villains-AJ Styles-TNA Maclin-industry grooming being normalized-Trump interviews comparisons to Vince-Israel atrocities and grifters-forced viral stuff-gimmicked elections and anti establishment candidates-911 conspiracies-manufactured consent-political elements to promote Knicks game-Deluxe albums-Graham Platner- ppl discarding mental health-horoscopes-is effort worth it to fend off worst impulses-social climate reminding me of the past-Daphne Joy-gimmicked doctors-Trump at Knicks game so the media has something to talk about-Stephen A Smith-Talarico conspiracies-funded chaos-Laptop fiasco-fended off irrational thoughts-one setback makes me go through all of the list-higher ups contaminate-CM Punk rumors-Karmelo Anthony sentence-RAW NXT recaps-Trolls-Janel Grant-Connor McGregor-Joe Rogan-Epstein-AEW Dynamite recap