So...Ryan is flying solo tonight, with a (suggested by Brandi) impromptu moment of raw and open expression of the pain and loneliness he's feeling right now. We all too often avoid feeling the emotions associated with pain, fear, nervousness, anxiety, etc. And instead we replace it with things that help numb it or avoid it altogether. Sometimes in order to get through something, we just have to allow ourselves to feel all the feels. That's what tonight's about. Allowing ourselves to feel it.