Today I Learned that I have to focus on the positive. It’s been a rough road with dealing with my school shit. It’s been a rough road with foraging for a high quality female. A lot of micro wins though a lot of losses. To get specific I’ve been going back and forth with the University I’ll be going to over financial aide and registration issues. It’s kind of ironic for me to be starting the semester a week or two late when I have been carefully planning for this moment for a few months now. And yet even though I’ve spruced myself up I’ve yet to lockdown somebody I could honestly see myself with in the long term. With so many step forwards and so many step backwards it makes one question the value of the intended destination. Why suffer so much to obtain this thing anyway? Why open myself up to be played with by strangers? Why aren’t I just pursuing my grandest dreams with the hope of overriding these tedious aggravating experiences? But there’s too much on the line for me to say to hell with it and fall back into my boyish ways. I’ve come to learn that my success is going to positively effect so many people. Not only just through the money that I’ll give away but just the simple fact that I started my adulthood out poorly but turned it around and did well for myself. That story is timeless. That story will be proof that no matter what people can change. That people can realize their mistakes and correct themselves. I really want to live up to a story like that. I really want to be symbol for something like that. The small but numerous losses are annoying as hell but by focusing on the positive I’ll be able to move forward. I’ll be able to keep motivated. I’ll be able to justify that my actions are yielding something positive in return. Even though I’m not meeting my goals in the exact time spand I initially set my actions are taking me closer and closer. By focusing on the positive I’ll be more inclined to perform on a long term basis.