During most of the gospels, the disciples wanted a king who would destroy their enemies rather than a savior who would destroy their sin.

My Christ-less failure mode is trying to destroy your sin instead of [before] confronting my own.

Luke 9:18-26

• 22 And he said, “The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life.”
• 23 Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me.