We're supposed to be strangers in this world, to feel like you don't fit in sometimes. We are to be rocked by evil, not comfortable with it. You're not going to always fit in. Be like a teen; rebel. But rebel against what's wrong, against the majority. You don't rule yourself. Either God rules you or the world rules you. God is the only one who knows your deepest desires. God doesn't care where you start, but where you finish.