it's the holidays, and without a doubt i am capturing the christmas essence. let' talk all things christmas, the songs, the presents; wazza-woo.

the third episode of season four is the story of a hallucination in my bipolar psychosis that i once knew so well; it fades from my memory as i speak sometimes, i do come to find. this was never meant for me.

in this December episode of For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic, it's all about mental health and where mental disability for me has been lately. Winter wagon, slay the dragon.

as season 4 of For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic kicks off, this episode uncovers sobriety and the reflections that i have as i reach 100 days sober.

in the season three finale, i take a look back at season three with sentiment. i also talk about letting go of the past in perspective, retrospectively.

let's get real about intimacy.

just about two episodes away from the end of season three, episode twenty four is all about contemplations and reflections on diving timing.

this is a life update of how things have been the past week. it's been a mess honestly, but being mindful of the things i am grateful for and letting go of the things i cannot control is so important.

the cat's out the bag yet again in this one, let's talk fan fiction and get real.

in this episode, i'm giving my advice on finding closure after getting your heart broken. there are only so many ways heartbreak can happen, and it gets quite overwhelming as it does consuming for me sometimes. when it comes to finding closure, it isn't so far down the road and with time it comes easily. (trigger warning: brief mention of self harm)