I FIT VERY WELL INTO THE MOSTLY CELIBATE MARRIAGE TO CHARLES KOLBER BECAUSE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH WAS VERY POSSESSIVE ABOUT THEIR BLUE EYED BOY. AND THEY DIDNT WANT ME TO KNOW ABOUT HIS LIBIDO BECAUSE THEN I WOULD KNOW HOW TO PROVIDE FOR HIM, WHICH MEANT THAT I WOULD BE CLUED IN.  BUT THE GENERAL GAME PLAN WAS--I SHOULD BE CLUELESS AND LEARN VERY LITTLE.