You're not alone. Every time I try to make a positive change it feels like I get hit with extra opposition. Like something is preventing me from being the person I want to be. I thought that meant I couldn't change. I was flawed somehow. Broken. Everyone else could have what they want... be who they want... but not me. It was my failing. But I've been reading an amazing book called "You Are A Badass" by Jen Sincero. And it has helped me realign some of my thoughts. And I wanted to share. 
*Pardon my loud cats... and the static. I recorded from my living room couch and it was interesting to say the least! Enjoy and be well!