God does not want you to live your life in shame, but rather to reclaim the life offered you trough the death of His Son.

What ever you've done, Jesus died for that sin. Don't live your life in shame. Shame makes you hide and you are called to be salt and light. You can't do that from a hiding place.

John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

You sins were purchased at a high price. Don't squander the gift.