"A lot of women, when they're young, feel they have very good friends, and find later on that friendship is complicated. It's easy to be friends when everyone's 18. It gets harder the older you get, as you make different life choices. A lot of women's friendships begin to flounder."  — Zadie Smith

In the wake of my return from the psych ward I found myself wrestling with the loss of many friendships, but one in particular hit hard. It reminded me of another breakup I had eight years ago, which I wrote about in The Book of Moods. This is me, candidly, unfiltered, exploring the pain of what it means to lose a friend.