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So what happened was

I just got dumped off in the middle of nowhere left to drown in the hopes that I would die so that other people could get done what they needed to get done because everybody else was like well somebody else will deal with that

and then just kept pushing me along because their people were more important than I was or

then I was pushed off onto other people and they thought I had some other agenda because it was the middle of political season and I didn't have any agenda.

I was looking for help and nobody could hear me asking for help because I sounded drunk like everybody else that I came from and

I come from a place where everybody makes excuses for behavior so of course I was painted by those that I came from because why not right

so then I appear to you as those of where I came from, which I've never hung out with and half of them I don't even know them, but they know of me.

They've always acted as my hidden enemies because I'm like cousin it that gets shuffled across the country because of all the bad things that happen to me and

I still loved but anyway so then other people thought I had a political agenda because of where I came from and I didn't have a political agenda.

I was just trying to survive and

I had no connection with anybody because I'm so used to being passed along you know I have been.

I've been passed along and adopted and and there's lots of kids like me out there.

We've just been passed along and we've we've adapted. And when you start showing signs that were unwelcome or we're not fit in your drift or your agenda, we see it because we've spent our whole lives being shuffled along and,

“Oh, you're that adopted kid where you're suddenly just dis disowned out of convenience because of for whatever reason or your number or your number is just empty, like mine. You know what I mean?

Like

And so then when we say we don't know why we're existing, y'all protest about abortion so much that you know, what's happening to us that haven't been aborted, right

like you've treated me horribly my whole life and all I did was love you and

the whole system just lets us down. You know what I mean?

And here I am 53 years old and it hasn't changed. And

I've been I've been looking for people I can look up to and I'm like, I can't believe I learned to heal from these people.

I must have just sucked up all the good. I don't know. I don't know. I did what I was. I mean, y''all told me to do these things. You taught me. Some of you taught me. And like physical classrooms, you know what I mean? You taught me in the field where we're saving lives together and you tried to kill me and I'm just like, it's just this surreal, surreal world.

And everybody had this perception of me and I was like trying to explain.

I was saving these kids, man, and they just kept dying and they they poisoned me and you just assumed I was drunk and then what happens and this this is happens since I was young.

What happens is you recognize your error, right?

But nobody has taught one another how to correct their mistakes while living through the uncomfortability of it and not and we and we don't want to recognize I'm uncomfortable because I'm correcting my mistake and for some reason, we just discarded.

It's like grief, man.

We do anything as human beings to just discard grief, don't we?

and it's just and then if you're like me and you you come from people who are even afraid to admit that they're descendants of the Holocaust, which was hell, and then you've got these people who think it's funny to activate propaganda to control our elders and I've been trying you know what I mean? Like you're not. Anyway, it's just a whole thing.

And humanity is just something.

It's just something

I did what I was supposed to do and people just stole from me and then everybody realized their hand in it and it just became more of us than you to deny and and so they did and now I'm just written out.

You know what I mean?

Like, and now here we are in this age where where I'm finding that I'm say, oh, they just wrote me right on out because there's more of them than me.

And then I realized how true is that right? How true is that like people just wrote me out. Oh, you're you're a life insurance number. Here, let me just take that from you. Let me relieve you of that number and here and here's me chucked

man, I was so happy to be in heaven, y'all. I was like, yes, I made it. I made it. And then got our father was like, “uh, this is an unscheduled checkout.”

And I it was like taking an exam. And and, you know, and you're going for your license to heal people and you're sitting in that lab and you're taking your your theoretical exam and the shit just turns off all of a sudden?

that is exactly what happened to me.

And then my granddaddy just like Navy snatch grabbed my arm, and I'm just walking down protesting. I am protesting to God about why I deserve to be in heaven, not in hell and my granddaddy's just like, “come on, Shorty.”

And then the next thing I'm I'm down here with y'all who tried to kill me and nobody listened. And then I was like, but listen, it's not about me. It's not about me.

How many people showed up before me and this is what you did and how many people died because we have been taught that some shit's happening and we don't know what's happening, but everybody has lost their damn minds.

They have lost their heads and they need to come on back down to Earth where the heart is you know what I mean?

Because otherwise we've just written each other. We have written ourselves out of existence, literally, literally, and it's it's I don't know. I don't know. It is hell. It is hell down here. No one knows how to show each other how to live. Everybody's just.. It's hell. It's war. I hate war. War is awful.

It does people and we're all wandering around like PTSD victims are elders are all jacked up because they're like “didn't we do this before? Why am I reliving this?” and it's just we we're writing ourselves right on out you know because if you don't care about me as a human being, then I'll start not caring about you as a human being and then we're just like all of us are singing the same song.

You know what I mean?

Do you see how it works so now we're just writing each other right oh this feels like hell yeah, I know. I feel your brother, sister. It is hell. I don't know. I don't I'm not feeling any love either. So we're all wandering around, not feeling any love.

People just taking and stealing hope, faith and joy. Like it's their job because it is because I don't know.

Does anybody know what they're looking for? I don't think so.

so I just talked to the air and these recordings and I posted up and I don't know who's here who's not here, but I'm here for some freaking reason, but y'all keep showing me I shouldn't be so I keep pleading to God.

do you know what I mean like so I don't know. I don't know. We like to think that we're we we're God down here. That's what we like to think.

But everything's written on our skin and we are writing ourselves right on out of sequence because nobody believes

you know?

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