Today I Learned I should go all in for love. I’ve never been a relationship type of person. With the past girlfriends I’ve had I didn’t take the majority of those relationships seriously. Apart of the reason for that was emotional immaturity. Another reason was that I grew up in a single parent home thus that was my norm. The past two years I got a little more serious about being in a relationship. I put myself out their more consistently and gain some success. But I just wasn’t satisfied with what I was getting so I told myself that I would earn more success and noterity than return to the dating market. Though it seems to be the case that men with more success and noterity have an easier time with getting quality women it’s not nessarily the only way. So for me to say I’m taking myself off the dating market for the next 5 to 7 years is impractical and cowardly. Especially when both can be done simultaneously. One can work towards distinguishing success and still date quality women. I always knew this in the back of my mind. The only gripe I had was that it takes mr awhile to find quality women who have equal amount of interest in me. So I would constantly grow tired of rejection and just said to hell with it and stopped actively looking. But today after letting an opportunity to explore a new relationship go all becuase of timidness I realized that I wasn’t all in with my pursuit of finding love. I was all in on pushing my life forward as far as my career goes but not all in as far as finding someone I’d want to tie myself with. And I’ve always been like that. Pursuing business ideas or making music have always trumped operating a relationship and it probably always will. It was something about being totally responsible for the relationship and the other person that didn’t appeal to me. But I don’t want to get myself caught in the cliche of the successful person with no love life or family life. That is a hell waiting just for me. That’s not the life of somebody who never stops trying. I want a full life for myself. That’s why it is necessary that I take finding somebody I want to partner with just as seriously as my career as an entrepreneur. I need to go all in for love the entirety of my life. Searching with zeal in brief moments of motivation is a recipe for frustration and dissapointment. There are going to be failures and publicly embarrassing moments but I’ll learn and become stronger from all of it. As long as I apply my mindset of whatever it takes to my love life I’ll find a quality person were the feeling is mutual.