"It does not matter how slow you are going as long as you do not stop" 
I don't even know what message I was trying to get across to y'all this episode. I just wanted to share my story and where I am at mentally. Last week was definitely a high I never wanted to come down especially after coming out of such a dark time. I was reminded that just as the bad times don't last forever neither do the good. Things change in the moment but how you interpret the experience determined how you categorize it. I cried and cried yesterday. I didn't realize the anger that was stored up. Healing comes in waves and I am sure that it wasn't due to a total lack of a positive mindset but the fatigue I was experiencing mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I needed rest. I was trying to maintain the momentum I had created for myself and wanted to use my productivity to the max. However, my body said other wise and once I physically could not do anything my emotions surfaced and well... I had swollen eyelids and dried snot on my face for 6-7 hours. In the process of trying to take care of everything else I neglected me and was mad that my  needs weren't being met through others. It is hard finding a balance of carrying what is yours and sharing the load. I find myself jumping from extreme ends of asking for assistance or isolating. I don't want to be too much or a burden, but on the other side of that coin I have no issue making it known my needs or seeking help from people who I trust can/would help me. It seems to me right now  relationships are weird and tricky but are my most valued resource. Communication and vulnerability is key. Closed mouths do not get fed.