Do you really believe what God spoke to you? If you answered yes, then do you live in peace and rest despite your enemies, praying for others, worshipping and praising, or do you live in fear and doubt, complaining and murmuring...in self?
There is still hope to live in full abandonment for God, but we must hurry and give all to God. Time is wasting and the light that is in us needs to shine brightly for the world to see.