In which I read the first part of a story I wrote (anonymously) for the Financial Times, describing the experience of admitting myself to hospital; explain my surprise, looking back, because I was really not very strong at the time I wrote this, and state (probably not for the first time) that I feel deeply ambivalent about sharing these experiences. If you do listen, please leave me a message: it really will help me to feel a bit less exposed. Thank you. JP