In this episode, I open up about my management process, from understanding my triggers and finding the right therapist to navigating substance use, mood tracking, and how the need to control..controlled me.

But honestly.... I almost didn’t release this episode. While recording, I was hit with intense spiritual warfare. As I sat alone, sharing what’s helped me, the enemy whispered relentlessly that I wasn’t qualified to speak on recovery or abiding in God. For a couple of days, I believed it...and I shut down.

This reminded me: this is a DAILY fight. Healing requires spiritual, emotional, and mental vigilance. We can’t let our guard down...even when we feel great. & While I am no expert, I just thank God for his strength, wisdom and guidance.

In this episode I walk you through my journey before and after being diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder. From the racing thoughts and sleepless nights to the spiritual confusion and hypersexuality, this was the chaotic season where nothing made sense—until everything stopped.

Mental health in the Black community vs. spiritual warfare vs. mental illness, and the impact of untreated symptoms. I also open up about how mania both felt empowering and destructive and why the church’s silence on mental health has to end.

Welcome to Gracefully Bipolar, a faith-based mental health podcast hosted by Nakiya Melanie (thats me!)— a lost and now found believer navigating life with bipolar 2 disorder. In the prelude to the season ahead, I share the inspiration behind launching the show, how God’s grace completely transformed my life, and why faith and mental health need to be part of the same conversation.

After struggling for years with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks, and mania / depressive episodes, I experienced a radical shift in my mental health and peace through my restored relationship with Christ. 

This podcast is a way of honoring God, sharing my testimony, and creating a safe space where healing, hope, and community thrive. Whether you're dealing with bipolar disorder or another mental health diagnosis, walking through a dark season, or just need a reminder that God still heals...I really want to hold this space for you.

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