Sometimes there’s days when the words on the page can match those in my head

Sometimes there’s days when the words in my head can match those in my heart

A time when I’m so sure that my world falls into place

A time when I land on my feet thrown in the lions den

Just happenstance

We like to punctuate our lives

With the words

With the words

Of others

We like a backing track composed

Of polite applause

Why did they walk away

Left their house in disarray

Like a tethered dog

Left to wonder when

It’s owners will return

Perhaps the Bank possessed

So the house it had to hear them

All the arguments

Over unpaid rents

And nothing left to sell

They left her

They left her on her own

To fade slowly

Fade slowly on the moor

But there’s someone

Who’ll surely come for her,

I wish it could be you

Don’t go wondering too near

You’ll believe this daydream

Or maybe there’s a ghost

Of a woman at the window

No reward for love

From the Lord above

So she waded into water

This house it’s lost it’s will

To shelter from the winter

She’s a storm away

From collapse they say

A grave made from her cellar

They left her

They left her on her own

To die slowly

Die slowly on the moor

But there’s someone

Who’ll surely come for her

I wish it could be you

Back in the room.....

This soil abandoned

Fertile once

Feeding families

From before the law

Now evil monsters

lurk beneath

Grab your ankles

Slowly drag you down

My breathing’s ragged

After forest fire turned and followed after me

I’m wading through

The crumbling ashes - scattered remnants of a thousand trees

Dissapointment

Coming after me again

All the demons

Coming after me again

At least they care

At least they care

But I can breathe

The summer air

Plough the furrow

And begin again

The hands that tighten

round my neck

Just belong to

Just belong to me

My breathing’s ragged

After forest fire turned and followed after me

I’m wading through

The crumbling ashes - scattered remnants of a thousand trees

Dissapointment

Coming after me again

All the demons

Coming after me again

At least they care

At least they care

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_disorder

Just think about it for a while

They never meant to spin a lie

But they found a way

To steal your world

Forever

She crawled around our living room

Searching for her mother’s womb

Then she pulled away

From your warm embrace

Then hit you

Motherhood a war to lose

You feel it tighten like a noose

The sole respite

Asleep

She wasn’t born to think that way

You called her name she looked away

But always seemed to need a second glance

She’s the one

The one who who needs a new thing to lose

The one who shook the screws loose for you

The one who wants to fall through the ice

The one who doesn’t hold you tight

This love we feel

Is just a fantasy

This road we traveled

Is just a dead end street

She’s the one

The one who who needs a new thing to lose

The one who shook the screws loose for you

The one who wants to fall through the ice

The one who doesn’t hold you tight

Three Kites

One day I bought a kite

Threw it and ran for my life

Sadly - it fell to ground

Pulled it through the sand

Much like dragging a stone

Broken - it was done

My kite number one

Kite number two was so different

Caught by the wind it was desperate to get away from me

Lifting my feet almost off the ground

Losing my grip I just watched it fly across the sea

That second kite

Just flew away

Watching the weather

Waiting for right conditions

May wait forever

Stalling my own ambitions

Someone tell me what to do

I’ll take a risk I promise to believe again

Believe again

I’ll try again

I’ll try again

I’ll try and try again

Believe again

Believe again

Believe and try again

Here I go again

My very last attempt

I told myself I’d step back in the fold some day again

Bought myself three kites to fly

Kite number one didn’t last as long as it should have done

Bought myself three kites to fly

Kite number two flew away and left me on my own

Bought myself three kites to fly

Kite number three has got to be the one that stays with me

But until then

It stays on the shelf

A Christmas song about a Christmas song

So far away from his home, Oakdale

He’s playing his epic song in the heat of the desert

I realised with my own minds eye

There’s really more to life than this silent night

Silent Night

You’ll believe the same if you let go

Give some warmth and some love and you’ll know

Can’t avoid the chance that you will fall

Never sure but it’s still worth a call

Born in a nice neighbourhood, as a child

He never took the light away from the Angels in the Choir

He never ran with the dogs in the sales

But It’s bought by Guardian readers every year in December

In December

You’ll believe the same if you let go

Give some warmth and some love and you’ll know

Can’t disguise a man to be a God

Never sure but it’s all that we’ve got

See the darkness creep over his face today

Just like he’s in an avalanche

Veil of tears

Merry Christmas

I believed the same after all

Give some warmth and some love and you’ll know

Can’t avoid the chance that you will fall

Never sure but it’s all that we’ve got

All we’ve got

All we’ve got

This song was played on Stuart Maconie’s show on BBC6 (16th December, 2018)

Brave Jamel

https://news.sky.com/story/boy-9-killed-himself-after-homophobic-bullying-at-colorado-school-mother-says-11484130

Nine years old in a Pokemon fronted t-shirt

All he wanted was a seat with the kids on the yellow bus

The whispers in the corridors wouldn’t go away

A logical conclusion made easy for him to say

He told the truth

Lost on a lonely road

Walking the quiet lane to save his mothers pain

Cruelly a child provoked

Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings never named

Brave Jamel

Meanwhile an old man arrives on a rainy Ireland

Says sorry for the wrongs of his brothers in the past

Answers to this “problem” sought, so he paused a while

Turning to his book he claims could have “cured” this child

It’s you who’s sick

Lost on a lonely road

Trapped in a dead end street to save his mothers pain

Cruelly a child provoked

Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings never named

Brave Jamel

Brave Jamel

A child provoked so cruelly for his “sins”

Brave Jamel

From the mouths of babes and sucklings

From the mouths of babes and sucklings

It’s you who needs help

It’s you who needs help

Obviously, there is reference to Oscar Wilde’s “Love that dare not speak its name” quote here, but I also have in mind the many people today in football, etc. who still find it tremendously difficult to be open about their sexuality, not that it’s any business of mine or anyone else of course.

Looked to the stars while he laid in the gutter

Norms were so morally proper and clean

Outside the box he was always pretending

One couldn’t be who one wanted to be

And he feels so real

In the warmth of another names company

What does he know of deals

All he knows is this love is the one love that speaks for him

Name this love

And then lie with me

Can you name this love

And then lie with me

Just lie

with me

No I in team for a room full of liars

No fear in him as the names are revealed

Back of the shirt, one is merely a number

The lower the number, the bigger the deal

And he feels so real

In the warmth of another names company

What does he know of deals

All he knows is this love is the one love that speaks for him

Name this love

And then lie with me

Can you name this love

And then lie with me

Just lie

with me

Conventional tuning but tuned right down to C

Got to know you on a wholly different level

When I drove you stone cold sober, I heard

All your secrets tumbling with your inhibitions

When I carried you home stone cold sober

Feel emotions drifting

To the middle of the night

I will watch you stumbling

Around the streets

Until you realise

All defences have been knocked down in this city for years

It’s the nature of this beast that feeds on all your desires

Take me to a place where they can’t break me

I’ll take my chance with your failings

All the chaos in your lifestyle

It terrifies

Feel emotions drifting

To the middle of the night

I will watch you stumbling

Around the streets

Until you realise

All defences have been knocked down in this city for years

It’s the nature of this beast that feeds on all your desires

I will hear all your little secrets

Things you kept within

It’s the lattice of these streets we wander

Epilogue for this life

I will watch you stumbling

Around the streets

Until you realise

All defences have been knocked down in this city for years

It’s the nature of this beast that feeds on all your desires

If you listen carefully right at the end of this one, you can just hear my daughter say “Are you recording”. I think she wanted me to watch Peppa Pig with her.

Never wrong but always right

Insecurity your plight

An enemy within your soul

All you care about is your own

Never look before you leap

Wounding minds you seldom meet

Such a torrid time you’ve had

Like the man from Breaking Bad thinks

From your higher ground

There’s no need to compromise

You’ll just twist the knife

Crafting words that stun and bind

Frozen in your web of lies

Ignorant to desperate cries

Ego loaded like a gun

Fire bullets from your lungs

Only to retreat and grow

Dragging us across the coals

From your higher ground

There’s no need to compromise

You’ll just squirm around

Crafting words that stun and bind

Frozen in your web of lies

We’re holding on

You’re stamping out our final grip

We’re holding on

You’re stamping out our final grip

From your higher ground

There’s no need to compromise

You’ll just twist the knife

Crafting words that stun and bind

Frozen in your web of lies

Like the Baron in the Trees