In Episode 29 of After the Quiet, I share the devastating loss of my cousin on July 4, 2011, and how grief reshaped my inner world. On the day of his funeral, I experienced another panic attack before delivering a reading in French—one that would become my last for years. In the shadow of profound loss, I began minimizing my own struggles, convincing myself my problems at home no longer mattered. This episode explores grief, panic attacks, emotional suppression, and the quiet way we sometimes silence our own pain when faced with tragedy.