Growing up Womanless/ Supportless

Growing up unhealthy in a support less environment s. Leaves you feeling like and acting like a people pleaser. Very negative, and not having a voice. Your voice is not there. So when you start going into the world you have no voice or no say. Therefore you are following other sounding like your environment has conditioned you to be.

Thereby you are always finding yourself in negative, low level jobs, low level living and low level relationships that are something of how I grew up. Your new mate is now just like in my case because I’m a female my new mate was l just like my dad. And my female friends were like me and some just like my stepmother.

In these support less environment we are constantly attracting what we are used to until we start knowing and learning new ways of dealing with different environments,. Thank you.

Healing ones. Almighty God has always been our support. Our support has always been to know who really is supporting us. God’s supporting love does not look like love a lot of times. Because of us being rejected, neglected, and abused.

Remember God’s ways and thoughts are not like our ways and our thoughts. Thank you.

When you are raised by two parent households that just so happens to be Narcissists then it’s no wonder you have no support. They’re not there to encourage you. They’re not there to assist you in homework project, or any school stuff. They’re not there to start allowing you to start growing into all that you can possibly be. By telling you the gifts and the talents that they are starting to see in you.

They’re constantly void of anything about you unless it is falling in line with being mini me’s of them. You are constantly walking around on egg shells in trying to always appease them. Based off of that you as an impressionable child are now under the leadership and guidance of a wounded child. You see the Narcissist is just that wounded child. And their wounds are bleeding all over you and your life now. Through the toxic environment you just so happens to be in. All the while breathing out toxic actions yourself. Thank you,

A healthier you is something that always starts on the inside of you. No matter how unhealthy you are feeling about yourself on the outside. Or no matter how you have grown up. Unhealthy parents will breathe out unhealthy children.

However, you as a person can always start learning to love you by starting on the inside.