Halloween

Well, they said this one’s serious

And not to go outside and smoke

I figured my mother wasn’t delirious

So I took note

Hunkered alone in the basement

Watching Season 5 of Mad Men

I called to make sure you were aware

And to feel like you still were a friend

You sounded agitated

And staticky on the line

I said, you didn’t let that stupid bastard

Talk you into giving him a ride

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There’s always tomorrow

Until there isn’t

There’s always the light of lightening in a storm

There’s always tomorrow until there isn’t

I will love you

Forevermore

Now the tempest seemed to be touching down

My mother shouted downstairs, “some maniacs are staying in the casino.”

She added its coming fast

And asked about that, “girl you know.”

If I’d known we’d split

I’d have never introduced you to my mom

If she knew you revenge cheated

She might not care if you were harmed

But it gave me another twinge thinking about the beginning

You drove me wild when you laughed fluttering your eyelids

Then under the streetlight outside your house

We talked about having kids

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I hear the rain hard while

Pacing from the boiler to my couch

Even after the texts with the threats

It’s you I still can’t live without

So I raced up the stairs, put on my Yankees hat

And grabbed the keys

Planning to find you and John

To explain what state of emergency means

But my father grabbed me with half-my-shoulder

Out the door

And was already pulling me back inside before

I even answered when he asked, “what the hell are you leaving for?”

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Well, two days later

And it was Halloween

I saw some little girl walking around a fallen tree

And she was dressed like a Disney queen

I didn’t feel nothing

While walking through our little shattered town

I couldn’t lose this shining vision of you

Wearing a white wedding gown

It was all my goddamn fault

I grew up getting called ugly

I couldn’t stop myself from wanting someone else

Even when I knew you loved me

I heard he wanted cigarettes

And convinced you to take him

The priest said nothing about his sins

Nobody wanted to blame him

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You know what I got in my head?

While I toss and turn

In the absence of sleep

In my childhood bed?

That I’ve never really stopped taking

That first walk right after the storm

I’ve never wanted to mend the

Threads of our life together that were torn

Nowadays they say I make you a saint

Because I block your flaws out of my mind

They tell me it’s only natural for people to heal

When they’ve had enough time

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