In this Phoenix Unscripted episode, I’m sitting beside the fire with you—unpolished, unplanned, and deeply honest.

What began as a quiet early-morning meditation turned into an unexpected conversation with my 12-year-old self and a layer of wounding I didn’t realize was still asking to be seen.

This reflection explores the moment many girls experience but rarely name: when the body changes, affection shifts, and something in the masculine—fathers, God, authority, safety—feels like it disappears.

I share how puberty, religion, and the sexualization of women’s bodies shaped an abandonment wound that echoed through my relationships, my spirituality, and my sense of self.

We talk about healing as a spiral, not a straight line. About reclaiming the body as sacred. About integrating—not rejecting—the divine masculine. And about the quiet power of inner child work, cyclical living, and compassionate self-witnessing.

This isn’t a teaching episode. It’s a remembering.

If you’ve ever felt abandoned by men, disconnected from the divine, or unsure where your belonging went—come sit by the fire with me.

You are not alone.

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Season 2: Rising in Real Life starts on the New Moon on May 16! 

This season, we’ll explore how women live, work, and lead once they stop abandoning their bodies and start waking up to their feminine power.

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