Hosted by Nikki and Ceci, this episode of Her Audacity welcomes their first male guest, Dubby. In an honest and deeply personal conversation, Dubby shares his experience growing up in the FLDS, losing his father at a young age, being pulled out of school to work, and eventually leaving the church in the middle of the night with nothing but his tools and a bag of clothes.

Together, Nikki, Ceci, and Dubby talk through co-parenting, fatherhood, marriage, work ethic, and the long process of unlearning survival patterns while building a steady, loving family. This episode offers a rare male perspective on leaving high-control religion, navigating relationships without a roadmap, and choosing peace, responsibility, and presence in everyday life.

Raw, grounded, and unexpectedly tender, this conversation is for anyone rebuilding after control, loss, or starting over — and proof that healing doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful.

In this episode, Ceci and Nikki sit down with Kelly, a sports nutritionist, dentist, and fitness model—to explore her journey from growing up without religion, to joining the LDS church as a teenager, to surviving a five-year abusive relationship, and ultimately rebuilding a life rooted in confidence and autonomy. Together, they examine the parallels between domestic violence and high-control religion, the way manipulation and isolation take hold, and how leaving a belief system can feel just as destabilizing as leaving a partner. Kelly shares how education, community, and reconnecting with her intuition changed the trajectory of her life, eventually leading her into dentistry, motherhood, and a new understanding of faith and identity. This conversation dives into healing, resilience, and the moment a woman decides she will no longer make herself small.

What if the way you bring up hurt is the very thing keeping you from real repair? In this episode, Ceci and Nikki unpack a simple line that hit like a freight train: “Shame and accountability can’t coexist.” They talk about learning to correct “spicy” kids without shaming them, apologizing to their own children for past patterns, and why some friendships don’t survive when accountability is met with blame instead of forgiveness.

They also open up about what it looks like to forgive a parent who may never be able to own the harm they caused, all while trying to raise their kids differently than how they were raised in high-control religion. This conversation is for anyone who’s ready to communicate hurt without attacking character, make room for real apologies, and slowly rebuild trust with the people they love—starting with themselves.

In this episode, Layla shares her experience of being placed with Warren Jeffs at seventeen and what life inside his home was truly like. She opens up about the culture shock of entering his family, the manipulation she witnessed, and the emotional weight of his expectations. Layla also reflects on the loss of her baby sister and Warren’s chilling reaction — a moment that revealed far more about who he really was. This conversation offers an unfiltered look at the FLDS world, the dynamics within Warren’s household, and the journey that led to her eventual departure in 2013.

A craving for a road trip to Moab sparks a deeper reflection on independence, motherhood, and the kind of community that helps people rebuild. Ceci and Nikki share what it was like to live under control disguised as order inside the FLDS, from food restrictions to parenting expectations, and how life after has been about learning to trust, nurture, and provide in new ways.

Through stories of the storehouse system, raising children, and finding humor in the chaos, this episode offers an honest look at resilience, self discovery, and the small ways healing happens every day.

Karli Lyman shares her story of walking away from the Mormon church and the emotional, spiritual, and financial unraveling that followed. She opens up about her husband’s mental health struggles, the rejection they faced from family, and the moment everything shifted—the day he finally acknowledged the pain between them. Through prayer, deliverance, and forgiveness, Karli found healing in places she didn’t think possible. Her story is a raw reminder that freedom starts when you forgive

Ceci and Nikki dives into the roots of perfectionism, where it starts, how it shows up, and what it costs. Ceci opens up about growing up in an environment built on constant correction and unreachable standards, and how that shaped the pressure she still feels to do everything just right before allowing herself to rest or connect.

Nikki shares how being misdiagnosed with advanced lung cancer forced her to release control and see how easily life moves on, even when you stop holding it all together.

Together, they talk about unlearning the belief that our worth is tied to productivity, redefining what it means to be “enough,” and creating homes and lives where peace matters more than perfection.

When Katie lost custody of her daughter in 2023, the world around her assumed she’d failed as a mother. What few understood is how often the system fails women who are simply trying to protect their children.

In this powerful conversation, Katie opens up to Ceci and Nikki about the moment everything changed, how the court system stripped her of custody, how she fought to get her daughter back, and what it’s like to grieve a child who’s still alive.

Through heartbreak, Katie found purpose. She built Mom’s Guide to Survive, a nonprofit helping mothers find stability, resources, and support through impossible circumstances. Together, they talk about the broken family court system, the courage it takes to keep showing up, and how one woman’s audacity can spark real change.

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Ceci and Nikki open up about separating spirituality from the systems that once dictated it and how leaving the FLDS changed their view of God, why they no longer believe anyone should stand between a person and their Creator, and what it means to rediscover prayer, peace, and discernment on their own terms.

They share personal stories about unlearning fear-based faith, healing their relationship with God through nature, motherhood, and marriage, and learning to follow intuition instead of outside approval. From deconstructing religion to redefining submission and leadership, this conversation is both raw and redemptive. A reminder that faith and freedom can coexist.

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Heather Nelson is a mother of four, business owner, retreat host, and podcast co-host who has built a life rooted in authenticity and growth. In this episode, she opens up about co-parenting, running a labor company and consulting business, and the journey of surrogacy, having delivered one surrogacy child in 2020 and now embarking on her second.

Heather shares what it means to balance ambition and motherhood while staying true to who you are. From empowering women through her retreats to creating a blended family dynamic built on communication and grace, she reminds us that fulfillment comes from living life on your own terms.

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