Duke Psychiatric Hospital - my home for a week. Therapy sessions with my doctor sometimes twice a week. Asking me questions such as when was the last time in my life I was carefree and happy, followed by what in my life was in technicolor and what was in black and white. If all this was not enough, I learned in mid July, 1993, that I was going to be indicted by a Grand Jury. I did not want to go through that and thought of killing myself as a possible alternative. In this podcast, I talk about all of this and specifically thoughts of suicide but in the end, walking away from that permanent solution. I did pretty deep into depression and find the seeds of renewal and survival.